the road ahead

today was a pretty enjoyable day.. first period i sat in the library thinking about my life while attempting to study the nervous system (damn that nervous system stuff is hard!). it just made me realize that no matter how hard i think i can't change things, and i can never take things back.. i admit that i've made too many mistakes lately considering my situation, but i can't take them back so i guess i can just look out for them in the future. i'm sorry? for the first day in a long time i felt liberated and i realized that i shouldn't feel obligated to make any effort in fixing what's left. derek you should listen to her, because they truly come and go. everything has its time and place, and my time for this has passed. "lest we forget".. i'm not afraid anymore, for only in forgetting can i forgive myself and you. i can finally move on to what's waiting for me, and i can finally restore all that i've lost and neglected. i'm especially sorry to you, you know i never meant to hurt you, you know i never meant for everything to fall apart. i'm hoping that with time a fraction of our friendship can be restored.

onto other things, don't really remember too clearly what i did today. food and nutrition was BOOOOOOOOORING. ms bansal gave us like 5 questions.. and gave us the WHOLE period to do them, geez i think she thinks that we're stupid or something. bio was nothing special, except ms wong is CRAZY, making us memorize all this crap.. phosphodiglyercialwekfn;awjhef my BUTT! lunch was pretty funny, i went to mcdee's with daniel (this boy has the NICEST SKIN i have ever seen..) to buy my own lunch and jimmy's lunch. we came back with mcchickens and sat in the SAC room for the remainder of the period. the guys finally gave ryan his present! it was a soundcard and a whole bunch of scratch cards, i think ryan said he won 30 something bucks.. last time i checked anyway. it was funny how they thought of all these creative methods to give it to him, but never actually carried them out. during english we watched the INCREDIBLES again, and i must say the incredibles is an incredible movie. it's soooo funny, jack jack is my DEFINITE favourite though. i think dash is pretty cool too, which incredibles power would YOU want to have?

afterschool i went home and went out for the craziest jog ever.. i ran two laps around the block, then i walked to school and timed a 400m, THEN i went inside the school in hopes to find ryan and the crew so they could drive me home. willie told me they were still filming, BUT OF COURSE, i couldn't find them so i ended up jogging home too. now i can't really walk, but it's okay. i just want to be the way i used to be.. but i think it'll take some work! haven't taken gym since grade 10. after the run i went for my very first driving lesson. it was pretty SCARY.. and i sucked really badly, my driver kept leaning over to steer for me, and he kept braking for me. *sigh* i feared for his life and my own. glad that's over, i hope i'm better next time. right now i'm watching america's next top model, these girls are SOOO catty! anyway i'm dead bored. just gonna watch tv now, bye bye.

first day back

nothing too exciting happened today. afterschool i went for a jog.. without BEN.. ANYWAY.. yeah i am mad out of shape, i ran a block and nearly died. what happened to those good old track and field days, EEK! must work harder.. RIGHT BEN? RIIIIIGHT =)

i only have one thing to say today,
the truth may hurt, but it's the truth that matters most in a world focussed on reality
where can you really go with things that aren't real?
i'm very relieved that i know the truth and i feel at peace now.. thank you for your honesty.

judgement day

that's it, it's the end of the world. time to go back to.. SCHOOL! not that i'm trying to be overly dramatic but it's pretty gosh darn depressing. if you're wondering why i'm using gosh darn instead of "fucking" or "damn", it's because it's come to my knowledge that derek yeung reads blogs, and for those of you who know him, you know he's allergic to profanity. i promised to stop so i will. ANYHOO, back to the main issue, in some part of brain i'm actually looking forward to school (maybe the cortex judging by bio package 38), and in ALL OTHER PARTS.. i'm just.. hating on homework and studying. i can't wait to go back to see my friends! march break marks the end of "holiday times", with TDSB being so incompetent and all.. we don't even have a long weekend for easter. who COMBINES HOLIDAYS.. COMMMMMON! i know in the end it's all the same, i mean, we get 5 + 2 = 7 days off.. but that's so different from 5 days followed by 2 days a week later! ah well.. tis over =) and i had fun.

i didn't really do much to highlight my last day of the march break, the truth is there's not much to do. everyone's sitting at home doing homework. i woke up this morning and went out for lunch with my dad, we went to this stupid buffet called "president's choice oriental buffet". the food there tasted SO BAD.. and it was cold.. it was just terrible. the humidity in that place was INTENSE.. you know that feeling you get in your nose when you inhale too much water vapour?that's exactly how i felt when i walked in. the place itself was crummy.. how all the food was set up, how they had NO SIGNS for any of the foods, i had no idea what i was eating. the ICE CREAM WAS TERRIBLE TOO, not to say that i'm a fine connoisseur of ice cream, but how can ice cream POSSIBLY taste bad. my dad tried the green tea and SPAT IT OUT.. how can you spit out ICE CREAM! yeah i'm done talking about ice cream.. i'm sorry, it just boggles my mind.

now i'm sitting at home contemplating over.. nothing. absolutely nothing! i attempted the queens arts/science and concurrent education pse earlier, note attempted because i have written to no avail. the concurrent pse is DIFFICULT.. bold/italicized/underlined. the arts and science one requires a lotta bs too.. i don't even know what to write! i'm being so redundant. luckily i have until friday to finish them both, sometimes i wonder why i procrastinate so much. i also ranked my U of T college preferences today, now compared to my failed mission at the pses.. i'd say that this 2 minute part of my day went pretty smoothly. i didn't really give my college choices too much thought because i'm 90% sure i won't be going to u of t unless i absolutely have to.. well my order went something like this: new, victoria, woodsworth, innis, trinity. YES, ONE mission completed =) i'm still trying to clarify bursary applications for western and guelph.. do they even have them? if you know please leave a comment or something.

on another not-so-bright note.. hey jo remember on saturday when we went to pacific mall, remember the bubbletea? remember how i was scared because i thought my debit wouldn't take $6.86? well today i went to update my passbook at TD.. my balance after the bubbletea was $0.60. that's right.. 60 cents. we are DAMN lucky that you ordered that small lychee instead of the regular.. because i would have been THOROUGHLY embarassed upon receiving the information of my debit card being declined. going to the bank today has made me realize that my spending is out of control. the last time i updated my book was november 5th, for those of you who don't go to the bank much or get statements in the mail.. your passbook is a record of all your transactions, TODAY when i went in, i asked the teller to update my book. "WOW.. we are going to be here for a while" says she.. and boy was she right! on top of my first book that i brought in, she gave me 3 new ones. THAT'S how many transactions i've made, enough to fill in 3.5 books. it's definitely time to cut down on my spending. gotta save money for university or something.. gotta stop buying shoes.. gotta stop buying a great many things! =( the trials and tribulations of a teenage shopaholic. i worked full time for 1.5 months, part time for 4 months.. and i have 60 cents in my bank account. damn. i have to start leaving my debit card at home.

that's all for today, i have to do my food and nutrition article on food-borne illnesses, and considering the fact that i get food homework once every other ice age i'm going to respect ms bansal and do it. the rest can wait. happy easter monday =)

new layout!

okay not to say that i'm a BIG fan of the incredibles.. or a fan at all (because everyone knows that i fell asleep during the movie) but jack jack is just TOO DAMN GOOD. even though i fell asleep during incredibles i watched jack jack attack, that's good enough.. jack jack FORever! =)

last night i stayed up pretty late talking to a co-worker from wonderland, i can't WAIT to go back! it's pretty stupid though because they say that i have to reapply online, in order to do that i need my employee number, and to get my employee number i need my employee card which they took away at the end of the season. go figure! i have to call them tomorrow to get it or something. today was a pretty normal day, i woke up at around 12, even though krishna called me at 11, and then i went to pacific with kings, sr and krishna. while there i bought another cell phone strap (two actually), and told the girl working about the one that broke yesterday. she was so nice! she offered to replace the broken thread for me. i was very excited to say that least, but once again, two minutes after being replaced it BROKE! i dunno man, maybe i'm just no good with these cell phone thinGIES. luckily this time i didn't lose any parts so krishna was able to fix it. now shrek 2 is once again hanging from my phone. the other two that i bought today were the incredibles and a nightmare before christmas, the nightmare before christmas one is so cool! it even glows in the dark =) even though my shrek one is only supposed to flash when i make or receive calls, it flashes randomly, and never flashes when i make or receive calls.. scammed! i haven't tried the other two yet. at pmall i looked for the ddr kid again but he wasn't there =( what a disappointment, simon was trying to convince me that pui fung is better. I DUNNO SIMON, I DUNNO.

earlier i watched saved the last dance, now i'm watching crazy/beautiful. if you haven't seen this movie before i suggest that you watch it! i've seen it a few times already.. it's a very sweet movie. not to mention it has that really good david grey song (and the hottest latino that i have ever seen). tomorrow will be.. the start of my labours, i haven't even touched my homework yet! hopefully i don't have much.. at the moment i'm not really too sure because i don't remember a damn thing from school. anyhoo, good luck with all your assignments, i will need luck for sure.

jay chou - tornado 龍捲風

愛像一陣風
Love is like a gust of wind
吹完它就走
Finished blowing, it then goes away
這樣的節奏
誰都無可奈何
沒有妳以後
我靈魂失控
黑雲在降落
我被它拖著走

靜靜悄悄默默離開
陷入了危險邊緣
Baby我的世界已狂風暴雨

愛情來的太快就像龍捲風
Love has come too fast just like a tornado
離不開暴風圈來不及逃
我不能再想
I can't think again
我不能再想
I can't think again
我不
I can’t
我不
I can’t
我不能
I cannot

愛情走的太快就像龍捲風
Love has gone too fast just like a tornado
不能承受我已無處可躲
Can't bear it, I have nowhere to hide
我不要再想
I don’t want to think again
我不要再想
I don’t want to think again
我不
I can’t
我不
I can’t
我不要再想你
I don’t want to think of you again

不知不覺
Without knowing
你已經離開我
You have already left me
不知不覺
我跟了這節奏
後知後覺
又過了一個秋
後知後覺
我該好好生活
I should make good use of my life

done with.. thanks for everything.

my return

this march break has passed by soooo fast! i can't believe it's already saturday, tomorrow it will be sunday, then monday - ie homework day - then TUESDAY - ie SCHOOL! damn, there goes a week, the worst part is that i barely remember what i've done these past few days. the scariest part is that i can't wait to go back to school.. i miss everyone! a week without homework has been nice though.

on saturday i went downtown with derrick, manshun, william and matthew. it was a fun though, but it was FREEZING cold! i felt kinda bad for william because he had on this thin jacket and he kept complaining about how cold it was. we started at chinatown and walked all the way to eaton centre, i didn't buy much until we reached bluenotes. i felt so bad for william and matthew because they were the nicest people ever.. they actually sat there and waited for me while i tried on clothes. i could tell that they were dead bored though, i think i took half an hour -_-; I'M SORRY GUYS! thanks for waiting.. it was nice. i settled for two pairs of jeans and then we left to meet up with the other guys. after walking a bit more we went to a hot dog stand, and this place had the BEST FOOD! it was really cheap and it was so good, plus there was free gravy with the fries they gave us. the food was super hot which was good, because after all that walking we were DAMN cold, and the wind was blowing too strongly. after getting the hot dogs we ran to eaton center and started walking around in there. while we were at footlocker, a metal CANE fell down and hit derrick and william on the shoulders. it looked pretty painful.. it was all kinda funny at that moment because it was so random. i felt bad for the old lady who fell down and dropped it in the first place. after going downtown i went to lisa's house where we watched legally blonde and a bit of the notebook. both of them were very good movies, both of them gave me some hope in men.

on sunday i went to krishna's house to watch the guys play teenage mutant ninja turtles all day long. it actually looked pretty fun but i was waaaay too tired so i ended up falling asleep. after redford and kd came by to play for a bit as well. after a few more hours (of me sleeping and the guys playing) me, red and kd ended up going to eat dinner. kevin had this CRAVING for wontons, so we went to this wonton place, when we got there we realized it was closed so the guys settled for harveys. i watched them eat because i'd already eaten dinner. after dinner i went to roderick's house to play some mj. i can SAFELY say that i won money, i dunno if it was a lot, but i'm pretty sure i did well. i didn't end up getting any money though because we didn't really cash out, eventually we all ended up in roderick's room on friendster or sleeping on the ground or on the bed.

on monday i worked a longass shift, then went to drink bubbletea with an old friend. it was nice to talk to this person again because i'd kind of lost touch with him. we were just talking about our lives and university, a good conversation nonetheless.

on tuesday i worked another longass shift, then after i went to roderick's house for his hot pot party! there were sooooo many people crowding around two small pots in the kitchen. it was amusing because it seemed like everyone was fighting for a scrap of meat. i didn't eat anything though (luckily) cuz i had something after work, plus i've never been the biggest fan of hot pot. i can't believe i haven't had kbbq at all this march break, that is a MUST-DO before tuesday comes around. kbbq is so cancerous but so good. i gotta hand it to you roderick, you throw some wild parties. after hot pot and a bit of mj/jitz, people started playing this crazy card game! it was so crazy.. there were guys kissing guys, girls kissing girls, and strangers kissing other strangers, it was uncomfortable but at the same time it was so funny lol. i think we played this game for about an hour before they FINALLY got bored of it, then more mj and jitz happened.

on wednesday night i played hookie because i was tired of going to work everyday, i had to make up some lame excuse about how i was leaving town with my family, i don't think they believed me but it doesn't really matter! i kinda took the day off.. at night i went to krishna's house and had some of willie's WICKED mocha cheesecake, it was so good. YAY!!! willie and jess ended up going home early, but i stayed at krishna's house to watch CLOSER. when i got there they were watching "in good company", but that movie was abandoned because people kept falling asleep, lol. it was pretty damn boring for me especially because i had no idea what the hell was happening. closer was pretty good i guess, the whole timeline of the movie was strange because they jumped from like one time, to a year later, to 3 years later etc etc, but they didn't even mention it. you could only judge if time had passed by natalie portman's NUMEROUS hairstyles, she probably had like 7 different looks throughout the whole movie.

on thursday i was supposed to work a 12 -5 shift, but then my bastard of a coworker called in sick so i had to go to close. ANOTHER longass shift.. aigh i am so sick of working, it's especially bad when the customers are disgruntled, COME ON IT'S eastER DUDES.. cut me some slack and stop telling me to give you a bigger scoop, SETTLE WITH MY DAMN SCOOPS. anyhoo.. after work i went to destiny with redford and kevin. in order to fit in, redford brought playing cards. he asked me "okay my clear ones or the coca cola ones?" i said the clear ones because they looked so cool! BUT THEN.. when we got there redford didn't want to play with them because he was afraid they'd be SCRATCHED.. WHAT'S THE POINT OF BUYING PLAYING CARDS IF YOU DON'T PLAY WITH THEM. hahaha.. i am KIDDING =P bleh. the line-up at destiny was so damn long, we waited a good HALF hour for a table, and when we got one it was like right beside the smoking room. i ordered this grilled salmon dinner thing, and redford and kevin ordered some drinks. they both complained that their drinks sucked crap, so i don't think they'll be going back anytime soon. i have no beef with destiny yet. after we finished our things, kevin had to drive redford home ASAP because he was gonna get in shit. i wasn't ready to go home yet! it was only midnight and the night was young. we came up with all these crazy ideas, first we started driving down brimley because i wanted to go to the bluffs, but then i got scared of the tamils and the kkk that gather there every night (i don't think i'm joking.. ), so i was like "LET'S GO TO WONDERLAND!". now i haven't seen that place for AGES, it was so crazy, i was just so excited, even though i hated working there sometimes i just miss it so much and i can't wait to go back this year. we drove by wonderland but we couldn't get too close to it cuz all the parking lots and roads were blocked off. after driving by wonderland we drove to vaughan mills, kevin did some crazy turning in the parking lot, he was obviously on crack because he thought that the mannequins in the UB window were moving. good times good times. the drive there and back was very scary because we passed by many places with no streetlights and vast farmland, it reminded me of scenes from jeepers creepers.

yesterday i spent the whole day at my aunt's house, we played mj for like 10 hours. we played like 4 easts, it was pretty crazy because we "lum jong" so many damn times. there were atleast 10 rounds where no one won. i won SO MUCH money in the end though, i came out with double what i had to start with, i WON 50 BUCKS! but of course i didn't want to scam money off my own family so i didn't bother asking them for it. i didn't even win that much.. but whenever i did it was like 8 FAN! all one suit self-touch, what a sweetass night, i've never felt luckier in mj. my uncle was even MORE lucky though, cuz he ate 13 yeew twice.. it was AMAZING! i almost had 13 yeew once.. but then my dad took all four of the green destinies.. what a punkass. well regardless it was a very good night. sorry i missed your birthday RYAN! if it's any consolation you are the nicest guy ever =)

today my day started off kinda slow, i woke up and watched tv for the whole day until me and jo went to market village, she had to pay curry's a visit. she ended up buying some clearance soft pastels, and bristol board. damn, i've NEVER seen a girl get that excited in an art store, it was like orgasmic for her or something. after market, we decided to stop by pmall. jo suggested that we go to the arcade because it's the only place where we'd "fit in". we walked around in there for a few minutes, i ran into jay, it was nice seeing him again. later we had to leave because it was just TOO damn hot in there, on our way out we noticed the CRAZIEST DDR GUY EVER right by the entrance. he had a score of 666. SIX HUNDRED AND SIXTY SIX NIKKA, and i'm pretty sure he was on expert mode because he was going DAMN FAST and like using every limb on his body, not to mention some of those arrows on the ddr screen were unrecognizable by newbs like me. holy shiet, the craziest sight ever.. me and jo both agreed that we'd bang him (if he weren't a teeny-bopper).. but whatever.. still amazing, very cute guy.. with GREAT SKILLS. lol.. 666!!!! i was so amazed. yeah not much happened after that.. we walked around for a bit and i bought this stupid shrek 2 thing for my cell phone. it broke like 2 minutes after i bought it. sigh, now i remember why i hate pacific so much, bROKE MY HEART. all jo could do was laugh, cuz she told me not to buy it, i should have just listened to her. now i'm sitting at home, debating over whether or not i should do homework. and i know that i should because i have TONS, guess that means i'm off now. TTFN! =)

holy crap what an epic entry.

the great romance

a great love is a memory
a memory is a story
a story is a lesson

lessons allow learning
learning allows mistakes
mistakes allow regret and correction

a great romance is a lesson
a lesson with gain and loss
a lesson with a smile and a frown

the greatest romance will bring your life to a halt;
a soul to your heart
a feeling that cannot be expressed



.. and a love that will never be forgotten.